I’m getting really sick of feeling unwanted and unloved. And there’s no real reason for me to be feeling this way, I just do, and its horrible and I’m tired of it, and it can stop any time, okay?

It doesn’t really help that my instictinve response to feeling depressed and alone is to spend money. Which I barely have, and will only leave me feeling guilty on top of everything else.

Knowing this doesn’t really stop the urge. Especially when its stuff I’ve been wanting, anyway. *sighs*