I just want to go home. I want to be able to articulate, and tell someone, and have them understand, and not shove medicine at me, because it won’t help, it never helps, and when I tell people they just get upset, and I don’t want to scare and sadden anyone, but sometimes I just fucking want to TELL someone, and I know better, so why do I even think about it, and can I please, please, somebody, go home now?