So…last week, the ex-boyfriend of my oldest friend hung himself. I didn’t really know him myself, we only met a few times, but I heard about him often, and he was a friend to people near and dear to me. And it pains me that I wasn’t there for them, that this huge thing happened to two people who I love more than anything, and I didn’t even know. I hate being so far away. I hate that just over the state line is so far away.

Ugh. I feel so petty and useless right now. I just hope they know what they mean to me, and that if there’s anything they need from me, all they ever have to do is say it. Janey, Mel…you guys truly are my best beloveds. Always.